I was such a fool to waste eight to ten months with someone who kept hurting me. With what had happened, I wish I went back to last year to stop myself from ever getting into it. I am so ready to forget everything and just let go. I’m so glad it’s over, and every part of my body is glad that it finally is. It’s hard that it ended, but I’m thankful it did. I’m not the fool anymore, you are.
❝ I'll see you in Disneyland
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LOL. Study break w/my sis.
Team no makeup living in the Martin Luther King library…..
BUT THAT 4.0 IS SO CLOSE. Determined AF.
Kbye ya’ll.
Team no makeup and no sleep
Thanks to the anon who left me a compliment saying that I’m “astonishing”
Lol I accidentally deleted your message! But much appreciated [:
1-all broski! (:
Well shit this is gonna be long.
1) I don’t know him so I can’t say I like him I just think he’s cute lol my life.
2) My tattoo on my back shoulder because it’s fresh and stinging.
3) My last thought was, “Dayum I’m tired.”
4) Break Her Down - Iamsu & Jay Ant
5) School, specifically my English class
6) Somewhere in Elk Grove
7) No
8) Don’t really have one
9) Depends if I’m really feeling or like the guy, I rarely do though, and I don’t really date lol what is dating?
10) No
11) Hale to the fucking no
12) Maybe, have to think about it.
13) Well I just woke up, but three things I am about to do today is hike Mission Peak with my friends, eat at Snowflake in Fremont, and go to a potluck party.
14) Would rather sleep at a friend’s
15) Trident
16) Yeah just my first ex
17) A hair tie
18) Yawp
19) I highly doubt it lol
20) I think…. I don’t want to though.
21) YES. Almost a whole fucking year. My biggest regret.
22) No.
23) I feel kinda gross right now I dunno why.
24) First a rave ticket and then food/clothes lol.
25) I dunno… Feeling kinda grimy.
26) I guess you can say that
27) Starbucks! I’m tired of Jamba Juice.
28) Because the nigga is FUCKING CRAZY.
29) Til three in the morning because I am nocturnal.
30) Couple of days ago.
31) Just woke up
32) The three raves I’m going to!
33) No
34) Depends the situation
35) Yeah
36) Light blue
37) Yeah
38) Shorts
39) The guy I think is cute haha
40) Yeah
41) YES
42) Yawp
43) Yeah….. But I want to, with the right person this time.
44) Yeah
45) I think so
46) All the fucking time
It’s weird how we’ve been friends since high school and now we all crossed into the same sisterhood and I can literally call them my sisters. I love these twins. 💜 #akdphi #sjsu #ucsc #ucd @_dianetrang @khanhkimle
Each day I hate myself even more and feel even worse about myself and some day I feel like I am just going to explode from all of this self hatred.
There isn’t a reason for me to constantly feel dreamy and semi-alive. My life is kind of okay. I don’t understand why I need to shut down like this. I don’t know if anything traumatic has happened to me. I can’t really remember anything from before this year. Sometimes I do remember bad things randomly and it scares me because these memories are hiding somewhere inside me. I think they eat myself in some ghostly way, so that I wouldn’t know they are there. I hope I never remember bad things.
Am I in college or high school?
So I have a guy friend, and he’s been talking to this girl right? He really likes her, and they’re taking things slow. All of a sudden, one night he texts me saying that someone told that girl that he’s going out with me.
I have never heard such a ridiculous thing. I didn’t know walking around campus with a guy is considering dating him. It’s so stupid that people can easily just assume things without actually going straight to the fact first before they start blabbing about what they think they know. The sad part is that she won’t even listen to what he has to say and easily believed such a ridiculous rumor.
Makes me wonder why people still think the way they do. It’s so dumb I just want to knock some sense into people.
Valentine’s Day
- Went to my classes not understanding a single thing as usual
- Went with Garrett to the Zeta’s Mogos fundraiser to support and bought him three tacos because I already had eaten, guess you could say I was “donating.”
- Reunited with some of my psissies at Fusion
- Went to the DC with Ratch and Ashley
- Went to the mall with Ratch, Chris, and Zeric
- Bought my TWERK NATION OUTFIT! Hehe.
- Went to Motif but that shit was WHACK. Crowded ass hell and they didn’t let no one in and we stood there for more than an hour. All of SJSU was basically there.
- It’s ok Ratch and I were rolling balls hahaha we had fun just waiting in line.
- I got scared at one point that there was gonna be a riot and I was gonna die lmfao I was trippin too much.
- Mobbed to the Twerk Nation house to chill with the Zetas.
- Ivan’s bed is really comfy when you’re on.
- Daniel kept slapping my ass and it fucking hurt and it made Alexis mad and she got overprotective of me and slapped his face hella hard LOL but it’s okay I slapped his ass back anyways
- Had light shows!!!
- Went to Nini’s house so the gang could play BP.
- Knocked out with Zeric on Nini’s bed.
Basically I had a nice Valentine’s Day even as a single lady lulz ^___^
Had to change my username so that hopefully the crazy ex boyfriend won’t find me and hack my shit. Why can’t he leave me the fuck alone? I hate my life.
Oh ya know. Last night was interesting.
I ate bun bo hue with Minh and drove her to get Sipatea.
I took a two hour nap at night and felt refreshed.
Chris hit me up to chill with friends and some new people.
Lazed around and did nothing while I played Candy Crush.
Suddenly it turned to last minute drinking at Minh’s place.
Got there and Minh knocked out before the night even started (what).
I wanted to knock out but they “forced” me to play Rage Cage and take shots.
Made some awesome ramen.
Tried to sneak away into Minh’s room and tried to sleep.
Juliuis came in and literally dragged me outside BY MY FEET while I was trying to grab onto THE FLOOR because I promised to take two shots after I ate my ramen.
I knocked out.
I hate how much I am missing out on. Whether it be because lack of money, lack of transportation, or lack of company. I am stuck sitting at home, not making memories, not experiencing any of the things I want to. What kind of life is one where you do nothing for YOU?
One day I am going to wake up and realize I have done nothing I wanted to.
And I do not know where to even begin.
We have the best mama. Thank you @mizkristea for baking us delicious macarons and surprising us with wonderful letters! 💜
