I’m growing distant towards people around me.

I don’t know what’s up with everyone or maybe it’s me, but things haven’t been the same and it sucks. I haven’t been talking to friends as much as I have. My mind’s clouded with so many thoughts that I cannot seem to set my head straight. I am too busy worrying about pointless things that I lose sight of those around me　. I guess I’m just going through a phase.

Posted 7 hours ago | 1 comments

Grad Nite was okay. It was so crowded at Disneyland and Magic Mountain except for Universal Studios. Lines were long but I had some good food. Red Lion Hotel was nice and the beds were comfy. Weather was bipolar.

Disneyland functions were abnormal. My feet are cracked from all the walking. Magic Mountain’s rollercoasters are scary as fuck. House of Horrors got me soooo fucked up. Panda Express is nasty and made me throw up. Bus rides were ratchet and OP. But I had nice naps.

Posted 2 days ago | 1 comments

http://traysongz.tumblr.com/tagged/food

Posted 1 week ago | 1 comments

In all vulnerability, I literally cannot sleep without Hatz and I being okay after a fight. My mind, body and soul simply won’t let me and I dont know why. I’ve never had this problem before because I’ve never felt so in-tuned with someone of this level. Regardless, if I have school in the morning, my sleep doesn’t budge. I can’t tell if it’s the right way to go about my nights or not, but until I figure out an answer, I’m up until 2 a.m. as many nights as I need to be.

It’s a hate love thing.

Posted 1 week ago

Sometimes I don’t know my strength and weakness. I wish I could choose when to be strong, because when I need it the most, it’s not there.

Posted 1 week ago

I am a selfish person, I’m going to be truthful. I don’t like sharing my food, I’m self conscious and awkward in public situations, and I say I hate myself on a daily basis, because I do. But I could use a push, someone to say, in a way that I am fine the way I am.

Posted 2 weeks ago | 3 comments

Why is texting so damn boring?

Why are people so damn boring?　

Posted 2 weeks ago

I have this bad habit of putting off work until the very last minute.
I feel like I actually get more stuff done when I’m rushing lol.　

Posted 2 weeks ago

I got bitched at for something I didn’t even do. I keep track of that shit and when I let someone use it and they over use it after I told them to wait and they don’t listen, I’m blamed for it.

Not fair.

Posted 2 weeks ago

Today is the only minimum day of the month and what am I doing right now? Staying home.

If I had known this would have happened, I would have stuck with my friends and watch the baseball game later.

It’s always like this, same shit, different day….

But what can I do right?

I dunno, the more I think about it, the more upset I am.

Posted 2 weeks ago

I hate you. You think you’re the shit just because you get along with every walking thing that passes your cafe. Sure you’re awesome when you pay under the table or you let people and your employees get high in your cafe, but you are one cheap perverted son of a bitch.

I hated working for your ass and cafe. I only work one day the whole week for three hours and I still hated every minute entering the cafe. People know me only as paella girl. I am not useless, believe me. You never pay me my full money on time. I busted my ass off for your cafe and shit and your sexual comments and you promised to not do anything over the line but you crossed that shit two weeks ago.

I got the worse high on 4/20 over an edible and yeah you let me rest in your office, I mean, CLOSET, for a bit because I had the worse headache but that didn’t allow you the right to fucking soothe me and put your hands on me to comfort me like who the fuck are you? And when you put that one nip on my neck that was the most vile thing I ever experienced, stepping in dog shit can’t even compare.

You better be glad I didn’t press charges. I didn’t even tell anyone about it, not even my boyfriend or friends, until today. I didn’t think about it until I had to think about the reasons why I have to quit.

I’m so glad I quit tonight. I’m so glad I got hired at Yoppi. I’m still pissed as fuck as you since you knew tonight was my last night and you still owed me from LAST WEEK and your ass disappeared and when I called you, your pothead self couldn’t even utter a single logical sentence.

You are fat and I hate you. Just because you’re from Spain doesn’t mean you are exotic. No one wants to hear your sexual stories or experiences, you dirty old pig. I’m surprised your cafe is still in business with the way you run things.

Posted 3 weeks ago | 2 comments

Me: -squeezes his cheeks- BEBZ YOU ARE SO CAYOOT. YOU ARE ALL MINE MUAHS MUAHS.

Hatzie: Tank you tank you. -kissies-

Me: You are adorbz. You have such a small head and face. You have like a cute hamster face. YOU ARE CUTE LIKE TWITCH. LOL MUAHS MUAHS.

Hatzie: Fuck you dude.

Posted 3 weeks ago | 1 comments